First of all , i decided to void my last entry (in you memory at least) ..the content in it are not well developed . Come to think of it , i feel that there are afew instances whereby platonic friendship do occur on a more intimate basis afterall . Hence as the conflicting person that i always am , i feel that people of different gender could behave intimately and remain friends. (hahah...i was too harsh in the last entry , aint i?)

Anyway , the topic of this entry is - eh..sounds kinda like a G.P essay eh? Ok , not going to torment any of you hence there will be no Topic sentence. This would simply be in the structure of the flow of my current thoughts . Abit disorganised ,nonetheless it reflect my true feelings .

JOlyn is feeling rather upset now.Due to a particular incident that happens an hr ago.

I went J.P to meet one of my close friend (a guy) for dinner . After that we went into CityChain which as you know is a retail shop selling watches . L.S (his name) asked me to choose some nice female watches , and give comments . Given my blur and quick to jump to conclusion personality , i thought that he might be asking me to choose a present for myself .Actually any person in their right mind would think so , as he asked about female watches , which DKNY watch looks more refined ..*blah...Lastly he mentioned casually that it was for a girl , whose birthday is nearing . Of course upon hearing that , i felt excited and alittle happy . Eh its a DKNY watch that cost over 170 bucks and its quite nice lor. However when i recommend another DKNY ladies watch that has "diamond studs" on its face but cost over 230 bucks (that one was ultra nice lo) , he quickly retort that the girl is not suitable for this type of watch . She works in City Bank and needs a more formal watch . It was then that I felt sad as when i heard that, my heart kinda drop alittle and i am kinda dazed . I mean , its not that im being materialistic or that i want an expensive present .
Over this 6 years of friendship , he has never once given me any present and in turn i have never demanded one from him . I was never unhappy even when we do go out on festivals like Christmas and there was no present . Because we are darn good buddies and present is not the essential reward for our closely knitted friendship .

BUT..my birthday is two weeks later and he is asking me to accompany him to a watch shop and help him choose a fantastic watch for this girl that he may likes , but know barely less than a year . To top it off , her birthday is only 2 days after mine - Dec 8 . Although i dont ask for a watch , much less a DKNY watch .Dont you think that its cruel to ask me to do all that , while he did not even plan on buying a similar present for me? CHOOse a present for her while i get nothing or something much much less? I felt so BAD...6 years ..so Cruel...ask someone esle to choose la <- my disjointed thoughts at that point of time .

Of course i tried to act nonchalent and continue to help him to choose the appropriate watch for her . I guess my disappointed facial expression must have shown through because when he says the girl birthday is on dec 8 , two days after mine , the thought must have occured to him that my birthday is near too. He then went on to ask me what i want , something that is economical of course he says. But by that time i was too crestfallen to lament any coherent reply . We went to JENNIFER , where he tried to make up and choose some skirts and tops , intending to buy them for me . (the clothes cost less than 50 bucks ..although the price is'nt the vital issue but my ego is trampled badly . Did anyone realise the gap between the Watch and my intended birthday present?Yes..its the thoughts that count and not the price ..but did you notice that in this case the price portrayed the thoughts? )

Well , we did not buy the clothes after all too because he says i dont look nice in them . I was actually fine with that as by that time i did not really want him to buy me a present simply because he was guilt-stricken .

I believe it is not his fault , he was just being a little insensitive and me -overly sensitive . Present or not , he still remains my best buddy because present does not dictate the path of my friendship . BUt my ego is hurt . If price indicates the level of friendship then i must not have meant much to him . It would be better if he did not intend to buy me a present then i would not have any thing to compare to . But the dire results portrayed so..nonetheless i hope the blissful girl likes the present BECAUSE I chose IT!! keke...I have Great TAste .

Lastly , this holiday feels GREAT ..i wanna play badminton , tennis , volleyball all day long . By the way , im going SunSet Bay Tomorrow with my classmates. Im going to have FUn , FUn , FUn . How about You , You , YOU ..YOu can COme too..too ..too... ( eh the last part was meant as a joke ..not a real invitation .Its there because it ryhme with the rest of the sentences keke . )

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