Monday, August 25, 2008
Life is pretty busy and hectic these two months. Work is great, I love my job but just need some time to adapt though.
Although im lesser of one friend, but nevertheless its good riddance. When i talk to someone, i claim those opinions to be my own, not exactly the truth but what i feel. I dun mind saying things to your face if you can take it. Along the way if things got out of perspectives and not the way it is stated in the initial way, then dont come and hound me.When i said apple, it turns out durian...you dun fucking come and ask me why i said durian rite. Stupid.
Anyway,i like to do things upfront, i can tell u how i feel abt you if i dun care how you feel. I can say, if you can take it.
Say we are not good friends, not up to her expectation. When i never see her do much for me when i was down and out. Keep asking us to go down and see her or whatnot, did she do the same for us when we require it without asking too? She got exams la, projects la, fyp la...then the two of us dun have ar? We sit around and meet her when she got probs ar. Diff expectation, fuck shit la...want us to do this and that for her when we see nothing coming from her.
Say i backstab her. Along the years i have no idea how many frnds whether in JI or out of JI, to have people asking me countless times "why are you still friends with her, she dun seemed like a nice friend, she always seemed to have attitude probs in sch, looks snobbish..." even with some close friends i tried to defend her. At some counts, i couldnt, i got it for backstabbing. Dun be stupid, i have always told you ur flaws, you can tell me mine. I just din wan to hurt you and tell you what people have been saying behind your back, i took it in, defended you when i could, not always but when i could. You dun appreciate its ok, dun fucking turned around after 6 years and say i badmouth you when i said more positive things about you to my frns, how loyal you could be, how you once stood by me in my bad times than the few flaws i mentioned about you (not the twisted truth part, thats not my fault, people twist their facts..not me).
When you retained, you told our friends that you didnt like JI and choose to leave the school to go poly. I stood by you, even you lied to our friends, i did not oust you, we did not leave you.
When you said you were once a hockey skater, but when we skated...you couldnt even skate in a straight line. you said its the shoes...I din care, as long as you were loyal and remain a good frn to us..we leave the lies and not expose you.
When you told a muture friend, you run 50 Km in 5 hrs. People asked you why were you so fast and all, were you sure about the timing. You got angry and asked to be respected and not underestimated. In the end, you got found out that due to some health issue, you did not finish the race, you skip some check points.
All in all, they are not an issue of life and death. Yet who wants an untruthful friend. Yet my good friend and i stick with this person for many years. We have not outcast her despite many things that happened in the past till this time. In the end, we got bitten back by saying we were lousy friends. I should have never stood up for her. Waste my time, in the end this is all i get. Next time look before i defend. See if its worth my effort. She arent. If you should have never tried, we were the once who should never. You are certainly not worth it.
She said i will get my karma for defaming her. Will i get my karma for defending her all this years ? For sticking by her? Defame? I would gladly tell you in your face, how i feel about you. Why is everyone leaving you? Why is your two "ex close friends" leaving you? Why is your ex bf and another of your current good friend saying same stuffs about you? You mean your character has no probs? I never claim to be a saint, just opinionated at times. Is it us or is it you? Ask us to reflect? We ask you to reflect...
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