Many years ago being the naive girl that i was ,i believed that after you see a shooting star , ur wish would come TRUE. Finally after reading so many novels and episodes of "liu xing hua yuan" , i really did See a SHooting star!!!

3 years ago , i was walking along the stretch of East Coast Park and busily sms-ing . When i took a short glimpse at the cloudy sky , i saw the star flew past and disappear into the clouds . Being the ultra "kiasu" person that i am , i quickly clasp my hands and made a wish . A wish that was half granted but not really in the way i wanted it to. No.. i did not just tell you that shooting star works but coincidentally that happens.

Love cannot be forced , let nature takes it course . Once i used to think that if you want something bad enough , work hard and go for it then it may come to you . You cannot achieve anything if you sit there and wait . Maybe i was wrong , in love you cant take destiny into your own hands . In my case , i fought hard and veer slowly towards my dream of that time , or rather the secret wish that i made . A dream that i finally made possible become a nightmare that i never want to relish again . Not exactly a nightmare as it was more or less my fault , i indirectly "forced" it to happen when it should not. Its my just desert . However i realised that Dream hurts , and wishes may work out although maybe not in the way that you want it to.

Hence last month when my friend and I were at Jurong Hill , i saw another shooting star again . This time i did not make a wish . I was afraid and i do not trust the outcome that "granted wishes" may bring.

I was made a fool because i allow myself to . I was sad because i wanted to mould my destiny myself . I suffered because i thought i could make it happen . But i cant and i Did'nt.

Then one day i realised that after everything has ended , i was simply a temp. diversion . That my intrusion was simply a kind of entertainment , which impose no purpose or whatsoever .

Luckily , fate has bestow someone , to me , for me. I fathom that if you do not try to make ya fantasy into reality , love may come to you . I will make up for my foolishness and try to make amend to my soul . To love and be loved is the greatest thing on earth .
"I be here and you be near and we can make our dreams real ."
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