SunDay BluEs...Greyness covering my RED
Sunday, October 01, 2006
The days passed by in a blur..blurness that i could hardly catch nor see clearly- a lil blob. May be i do deserved what was coming to me , its karma they say. My family breds players , people whom has no qalms about hurting someone esle feelings . I was insulted . In the past , i may have hurted afew people along the way , to achieve my so called happiness..i am not proud of it and i do regret certain tactless things that i have done. I repented . I reconcile with the fact that if i do hurt someone , some one ESLE would come along and "return" the favour back. Well...now i guess , i have collected all the "payable debts" back , any Bad Debts still outstanding , pls let go and not pay them back cos i have gotten my debts back with interest owing too. Gimme a Break....Life a chore for everyone. If i look "wild" or clubber kind to anyone outta there , YOU R SO WRONG. IM vunerable , simple , and NORMAL. It should be written all over my face , if you din get that message , it must be you did not look hard enough or know me well enough . You look @ my appearance and depict what you saw from there , the topics i raised may be open...but do not suggest im THAT open. I talk in a matter of fact manner however i do not act that way...im EMOTIONAL , feelings churning everywhere ...Do not interpret what you saw as what it is as i wear my heart not upon my sleeves..upon my face nor upon my gesture..But upon my feelings , deeply embedded in a pool of water ..that can be seen and not found.I feel nothing...im happy...im sad... haha....dun ask me why i suddenly felt this way. Sometimes i will just suddenly feel melocholny...Sometimes i feel happy out of nowhere...Now im ok cos i just ate SUNDAY BRUNCH with Mama and Lexuan.. ;)
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