Friday, April 13, 2007
Im stuck in school on a friday night. Freaking lots to catch up on. ABu is infront of me, duno busy with Msn or notes. But whatever it is, we are the Undate-ables on a friday night ...hahaa...nooope we are dating our notes for the night. ;(
Anyway past weeks passed like whirlwind..so fast that exams are gonna arrive without appropriate amt of work being done yet. I wish to be like Siling and Cheryl, so motivated and fast at completing their revision. Woe on me~~
I wana watched P.O.T.O at Esplanade..Everyone seemed to dressed to the nines to go watch that play. But exams are coming, and i have no time to even go town. Too many friend's birthdays so near my exams...Im looking forward to Rochester PArk for our long overdue meeting with my Besties...We need to catch up badly although it is just a few days away from my 1st paper.
MAny semester came and passed...I am practically left with afew good friends and hang out with the few that i have. I have no idea why but many of my good friends are headstrong or have "attitude" , which includes me i guess. Which unfortunately creates friction sometimes.For example, Samantha and i have lotsa problems with that issue but we always come out alright, not too badly hurt la. During my birthday last year, i made 2 of my good friends unhappy. Not that i admit im at fault but i feel that under the difficult circumstances im faced with, pls understand sometimes. I dun wanna lose friends cos of character or simple stubborness of who is at fault when the frndship is valued much more.
Im not like other friends that you may have. I garner i have many friends...and may have many more good friends that the norm. Just cos im not like you (you as in any of my frn) as in the way you can spent time with me and i cant...you put that blame upon me and say i have "new friends" liao so no time for You, you or you. No..im not Bhb..just that at times this accusation that "yah la...got friends liao..now dun wan "us" liao la"...is unfair. I love my friends so much that i try to arrange quality time between school and everyone. I noe you guys have alot of gd frnds too thats cos u are good at managing everything i guess. I aint that good but beliff me when i say this i try my best so pls tolerate my behavior.
And im a friend. Not a boy friend. At times i will do things for my girlfrnds like ppl do in a r/s but not always.( Ar bo why you need the other half for? You just get me enough liao lo) I appreciate it but doesnt mean i will have to do what you expect or want me to do. I dun cos i dun have time. I dun expect my friends to do the extra ordinary things either. I appreciate them when they did, be there for me but dun expect credits when one do things. EVery one do things for their cherished friends, if not why do you think there are FRIENDS and GOOD FRIENDS? So why calculate all the "loose changes" and compare? I do not wanna discuss fairness cos is Friendship all about that. DO things and not expect returns, if yes then not dun do it . EVeryone expect things of cos but if one gona pray and hope on them then you can jolly well forget about it. It irks the life out when comparision gets in place. I may not be a fantastic friend but at least i dun compare or have nuthing much to compare? I just dont wanna do that. It became like a weighing Machine..Can we weigh intangible stuffs? Is friendship measurable? Cos im not gonna jot down whatever i did and write in my list , hoping they will be returned.
Sorry. Sometimes they dun. And No , im not being irrational or what. Im just sian. Bogged down by work and thoughts. :) happy weekend!Labels: Measurable Friendship?
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